RE-evaluating......and stuff.

Yesterday started like any other ordinary workday. Alarm went off, snooze button hit(twice), grudgingly get up and go about my day. My usual routine is to do the shower thing around 7am or earlier so I have time to clean off the car and warm it up if needed before heading to work.

Everything went according to plan - until I dropped the razor in the shower. You know those moments that happen, and you never see them coming, but they can alter the course of your life? This could have been one of them. The razor dropped, I moved my foot an inch the wrong way so I could bend down to get it...and my foot hit the razor handle. I fell out of the shower bringing the curtain rod with me and dazing myself as I hit the bathroom floor in the process.

I lay there in my stupor for a few seconds....thinking"man, I hope the paramedics that find my dead body are cute..." Then I thought.. "you're not dead, idiot. You could have been, but sadly you still have to go to work today." As I struggled to get off the floor, put the shower curtain back up and rinse the conditioner out of my hair, my cat finally decided to see what the commotion was and I heard a plaintive 'Meoww?' from outside the bathroom door. At least Boo was concerned about my well being. Or he was checking to make sure that someone would be feeding him soon. Let's go with CONCERN. ok?

All this activity got my brain firing and I began to wonder "what if??"
I was plunged into a period of self reflection that lasted probably most of an hour. What if I HAD lost consciousness or something even more tragic had happened...who would miss me? Who would even freaking care? I started counting in my head and I got a number.

Have you ever done that? considered the impact of your own subsequent demise on your family and friends? Wondered how they would react and who would be fighting over your autographed copy of Star Wars..VHS version? I considered the nature of my friendships and who would be profoundly affected and who would just say.."Oh yeah? she's dead? hmmm too bad." I REALLY suggest that you think about this, it's an eye-opener.

So, I'm doing a little RE-evaluation..taking stock as it were. If you wouldn't miss me, or you would prefer that I just kept my random musings to myself and not infect your life with them, let me know now and I'll just make sure you don't get a memo when my REAL expiration date comes up. OK?

Meanwhile, back at the ranch, if you don't hear from me for a long period of time..well, chances are pretty good that you got re-evaluated, or I tripped and fell somewhere else and I'm currently unconscious and can't reach my cellphone..

Yeah, that's probably more likely.